Thursday, November 26, 2009
bismillah.
Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide
and we both had a beautiful night
The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we haven't argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too
The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then and there you were the one
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
I'm so happy so happy that you're in my life
and baby now that you're a part of me
you showed me
showed me the true meaning of love
and I know he loves me
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul
He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul
1:33 PM
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
bismillah.
as you know,
i had to meet D yesterday.
when i first reached out to hold his hand,
he held mine so tight and refused to let go.
even while he is sleeping.
(:
and on our way to Woodlands,
he slept hugging me so tight.
when i asked him why,
"i don't want to lose you again, ever."
i smiled, touched much.
anyway, we spent time together again today.
like from the morning until 6-ish.
haha...
i love him.
(:
it feels like nothing bad ever really happened.
(:
amin.
10:09 PM
Sunday, November 22, 2009
bismillah.i'm feeling better now.
(:
well, things are sorted.
his still as angsty as before.
so whatever.
-
the thrill about falling in love is to get hurt and his there to heal your wounds.
thought a lot about what iqin and i said just now,
we both just can't date boring and nice guys.
no arguments = a monotonous relationship. period.
i miss danial. a lot.
i'm going to meet him tomorrow morning.
i HAVE TO.
'cause his being angsty.
pffts.
we're not back yet.
so don't ask.
we are not even friends, so he claims.
but, we still love each other.
-.-
complicated, yet, i enjoy it.
call me stupid.
amin.
11:26 PM
Saturday, November 21, 2009
bismillah.to love in vain, it means...
It means that you showed that you cared, you did everything you could for them, try to made them feel happy or super attentive to their needs, but they
never seem to respond postively to those actions...and thus, it all is for nought....
you just are too attached to this person who does not feel the same way.Love is in vain, when
our purpose for loving isn't just as true and noble as in expressing it. In words and deeds..
-
yes, i loved in vain.
:D
kudos to me.
and that awesome actor who deceived me for 18 months.
don't worry, i'm fine.
he looked me in the eyes and said, "i don't love you anymore."
kudos to him.
(:
-
like i said, love is becomes something meaningless after awhile.
i let him in.
knowing i don't have much to give.
but, i let him in.
i let him love me.
and, i think that was the dumbest attempt.
'cause i loved him back.
-
amin.
12:01 PM
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
bismillah.i feel like taking a pen and stabbing it at my throat,
yknow like last night's Royal Pains episode.
LOL.
i'm having difficulty breathing.
it's like there's something stucks.
with stupid annoying flu.
body aches.
i have a feeling my throat is causing the problems, again.
i want to die.
the other day my body was sooooo hot bby couldn't touch it for more than half-a-minute without feeling intense heat.
then, it turned super cold, like corpse.
i don't like this.
at all.
):
amin.
10:45 PM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
bismillah.so sick of you.
so sick of your stupid ego.
so sick of your nonsensical tantrums.
so sick of not knowing anything.
so sick of being forgotten.
so sick.
so very sick of all this.
to you, i hate you. period. urgh. so much for being nice to you when i was supposed to blow my top.
amin.
4:29 AM
Sunday, November 8, 2009
bismillah.
alhamdullillah. with Allah's blessing and guidance, we turned 18th month yesterday. for a couple like us, we've gone through so much in a short period of time. whilst on the phone, we talked about our first meeting. and you said to me the things you never told me before. you trusted me from the first day. i am utterly thankful to God we lasted this long. 'cause we are both like volcanos, we erupt as and when we like. but, through it all, through the nasty arguments, through the teary nights, we made it thus far. insya allah, with Allah's blessing, i hope we would last much longer than this. i love you, danial siddiq, more than words could express. i am thankful i met you, you open my eyes to life. you taught me life and its hurdles. how to live life. you taught me how to love. you taught me hardships. you taught me more things that this once-snobbish girl ever knew. you allowed me to enter your life, never hiding a single bit of it. you love me with all your heart and soul. you became a pillar of strength, stronger than platinum. you became a confidente whom i confided every itty-bitty details of my miserable life. but never once have you complained. you were never afraid to scold me in public, reminding me to mind my actions or words. that made me human. that made me respect you. you said to me before, "Respect has to be earned, not given.". you earned mine since the day you stopped doing stupid things. you are more than a boyfriend to me, a bestfriend, a brother, an angel, a mentor. my everything. never once in my life have i pictured letting someone else in to rely on. until you walked into my life. you changed everything about me, not in a bad way. you made me more lady-like. you made me feel comfortable being myself. you gave me strength. you showed me the world. it is undeniably true, if i lost you, i will be nothing, just jane doe. i've wondered if i am too young to consider all this, but, i don't care. this is what my heart, my soul, my vital organs, my mind screams out for. yes, i know the risks that i am taking. i may end up crushing myself completely. but what is love with no risk? i leave it to the Al-Mighty. He would know what is best for his servant.
-
p/s, we didn't meet today. ):
but, it's okay!
i still love you!
amin.
12:49 AM
